I'm going crazy trying to figure this out

Should I do foodplay again!?

When you cannot make up your mind which of two evenly balanced courses of action you should take - choose the bolder.
-William Joseph Slim

I was going through some quotes about decision making, cause that's what I do, make decisions...anyway. I came across this one and it kinda slapped me across the face. Doing foodplay again is the easy and safe decision. It won't fulfill my needs, I won't learn anything new, and it won't get me closer to my long term goals. All that I could've gotten from that tour, I got the first time around. NOT doing foodplay is scary. So that's probably what I should do.

I wonder if I'll still feel this way after I sleep on it.

A Chorus Line

Its about a group of dancers are going through an audition for a show on Broadway. In a scene near the end of the show, all the dancers are discussing how tough the theatre business is. While its specifically about dancers, anyone in the industry can relate to what they are saying. There is no security, any job you get will always end, "and then you just have to start all over again!"

Every night by the end of this scene I am questioning, what the heck am I doing in this industry? What was I thinking?! Then the character of Diana starts singing this song. Its a love song about theatre. Everyone in this business is here because we want to be. I go through this rollercoaster every night, but I always leave sure of my decision.

Won't FORGET, can't REGRET, what I did for LOVE.

Hmm Decisions

As October gets closer, so does the time when I have to decide whether I am going to do FoodPlay again or not.



Obviously I loved it, but did I love it enough to watch that show twice a day for another 4 months?